i just like that word.
today has been an unexpected day of rest for me. it's not supposed to be happening, but i keep telling myself that i'll get to work very soon.
my day began with brunch at firefly with mindy. it was fantastic. we ordered blueberry pancakes and a greek omelet and shared both. oh, and of course mimosas. we sat outside and faced the square. it was nice. next, i came home and took a nap, for a long time. then i went to kroger to get some eggs. i have to make cascarones for my presentation on tuesday. i figured i should do something constructive. i'm supposed to be completing a unit today, but i guess since it's so late i'll just work on my presentation stuff.
i am so excited for next thursday to be here because that is when the fun begins. this semester will be over. i think karen and her husband and mike and i will go to dinner to celebrate. karen is a friend i have made through class. we really get each other. it's great. the only thing is that she lives in brunswick, about an hour away. then on friday the cleaning people come, then on saturday my mom and camryn come! yey!
i'm going to eat some cereal, play some billy holiday, and work on my presentation.
i haven't mentioned that for my presentation i'm dressing up as frida kahlo. i'm even going to draw in the uni brow. yesss.
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Thursday, July 17, 2008
i'm so excited!
i just can't hide it! i still have two more projects to do, but i can taste the end of all of this!!
i'm going to make it a point to go to the beach or pool everyday as soon as my mom leaves. she doesn't do beach or pool. while she's here we will walk around, eat well, and shop. that sounds like fun to me.
i should be working on my unit right now, but instead i'm procrastinating again. it's okay. it's still early.
so, my plants, flowers, and vegetables are looking awesome this summer. usually they tend to look pretty sad during the summer due to the extreme weather conditions, but for some reason they are thriving. nothing makes me happier. plants are one of the things i collect and try to practice restraint when around them at a store.
i'm going to see if mike brewed some coffee before he left. i think i smell some...
i'm going to make it a point to go to the beach or pool everyday as soon as my mom leaves. she doesn't do beach or pool. while she's here we will walk around, eat well, and shop. that sounds like fun to me.
i should be working on my unit right now, but instead i'm procrastinating again. it's okay. it's still early.
so, my plants, flowers, and vegetables are looking awesome this summer. usually they tend to look pretty sad during the summer due to the extreme weather conditions, but for some reason they are thriving. nothing makes me happier. plants are one of the things i collect and try to practice restraint when around them at a store.
i'm going to see if mike brewed some coffee before he left. i think i smell some...
Friday, July 11, 2008
my eyes hurt
i've been overwhelmed lately with school. my neck is a permanot from the stress. tonight i'm planning on beginning and completing 3-4 assignments, that way tomorrow i can work on 1 of three major projects that are due the week after next. my master plan is to do one a day. That means, one on saturday, one on sunday and one on monday. after that i can study for finals and wrap other assignments up, like stupid on-line discussions we have to do.
seriously, all i want to do is sleep, or maybe go to the beach and sleep.
my mom and camryn, my niece, get here in a couple of weeks. my mom leaves after a few days and leaves camryn here with me. this will be the third time camryn comes to visit me during the summer. i'm so excited for it. after her two weeks is up her and i fly back to dallas together and i hang out with moms for five days. i miss my mom. i want her near. oh, and then school starts again. this next semester will be a breeze compared to this one. i will only be taking one class, doing my student teaching thing, and doing my portfolio. i'm really excited about the student teaching portion because i got my first choice school. it's a public montessori school that gets rave reviews. my hope is that i get a job there after the student teaching is up.
all right, i guess i better stop procrastinating.
seriously, all i want to do is sleep, or maybe go to the beach and sleep.
my mom and camryn, my niece, get here in a couple of weeks. my mom leaves after a few days and leaves camryn here with me. this will be the third time camryn comes to visit me during the summer. i'm so excited for it. after her two weeks is up her and i fly back to dallas together and i hang out with moms for five days. i miss my mom. i want her near. oh, and then school starts again. this next semester will be a breeze compared to this one. i will only be taking one class, doing my student teaching thing, and doing my portfolio. i'm really excited about the student teaching portion because i got my first choice school. it's a public montessori school that gets rave reviews. my hope is that i get a job there after the student teaching is up.
all right, i guess i better stop procrastinating.
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
frustrations abound
okay, so alot's been going on. for one, i had to write mike a letter. yup, i've gotten to that point. basically what brought it on was the same sequence of events that always take place during one of our stand offs. same exact sequence. he does something that pisses me off, i get pissed, he acts like i'm crazy and makes excuses for what he did, i get more pissed, he makes it worse for himself by pissing me off further by staying out late and not calling me for example, i get more pissed, then i reach my breaking point and we talk about it and everything is fine until next time. although, every time this happens i get progressively more resentful and closer to my ultimate breaking point. writing a letter means i am very close. i don't want to be close. i just want him to get it.
so this morning we were discussing how he is spending the night in hilton head because he feels like hanging out with his friends that live there, so in my head i was making plans of my own. i asked him if he was going to spend the night and then hang out the next day, since he had his surf board, and he said no, that he was surfing today. then he asked me "why? are you going got miss me?" i shook my head back in forth, no. i meant it. he commented that the sad thing about that was that i wasn't kidding and my response was that i was used to it.
last night for example. he knows that every monday i don't have class and i cook dinner. i was walking to the grocery store around 5:30 to get stuff for dinner and i called him to see when he was going to be home. he was on his way from work to jamie's house to hang out. i asked him how long he was going to be there and he said an hour and that he would call me when he was leaving. i knew that was complete bull shit from all the past experiences, so i went to happy hour with mindy. i decided to nix dinner plans since i'm not going to wait around for him to call and then drop what i'm doing to make dinner according to his schedule. he called around 7:40 to let me know that he was coming home. that meant he wouldn't be home until around 8:30 since he was in hilton head. from what he told me originally he was supposed to be home no later than 7:30. i came home around 9 and he was wondering where i was etc. etc. these are the things i consider inconsiderate, all of it. he's not doing a good job at showing me that he understands. i'm frustrated in so many ways.
on to other more exciting things. i'm getting my couch and a chair recovered. i can't wait for it to be done! i may need to change my living room wall color now. we'll see once it's in here.
so this morning we were discussing how he is spending the night in hilton head because he feels like hanging out with his friends that live there, so in my head i was making plans of my own. i asked him if he was going to spend the night and then hang out the next day, since he had his surf board, and he said no, that he was surfing today. then he asked me "why? are you going got miss me?" i shook my head back in forth, no. i meant it. he commented that the sad thing about that was that i wasn't kidding and my response was that i was used to it.
last night for example. he knows that every monday i don't have class and i cook dinner. i was walking to the grocery store around 5:30 to get stuff for dinner and i called him to see when he was going to be home. he was on his way from work to jamie's house to hang out. i asked him how long he was going to be there and he said an hour and that he would call me when he was leaving. i knew that was complete bull shit from all the past experiences, so i went to happy hour with mindy. i decided to nix dinner plans since i'm not going to wait around for him to call and then drop what i'm doing to make dinner according to his schedule. he called around 7:40 to let me know that he was coming home. that meant he wouldn't be home until around 8:30 since he was in hilton head. from what he told me originally he was supposed to be home no later than 7:30. i came home around 9 and he was wondering where i was etc. etc. these are the things i consider inconsiderate, all of it. he's not doing a good job at showing me that he understands. i'm frustrated in so many ways.
on to other more exciting things. i'm getting my couch and a chair recovered. i can't wait for it to be done! i may need to change my living room wall color now. we'll see once it's in here.
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