i haven't written about this yet, but there has been a little infuriating situation going on in my life...
while i was away at my grandmother's funeral, keara, the teacher i teach with and girl that has decided to try to appropriate my life as hers, decided to call my boyfriend to see if he wanted to go bowling on sunday.
well, he saw through her intentions, and didn't go and also told me about it immediately. i returned on tuesday to several calls and text messages that continued through out the entire week. we didn't work because it was spring break. i respond a couple of times via text with short answers. she continued to hound me. i see her this morning as we do every monday and she was trying to be a bitch to me. imagine that. i decided before work that i was going to play with her. i was definitely going to rapidly push away and discontinue any friendship, but act normal during work hours. i knew the guilt was consuming her and that she was going to bring it up. so, i acted normal while she tried to play the victim as if i was the one being mean to her. finally, at the end of the day the shit hit the fan. long story-short, i left her in the classroom crying. when you fuck with me i'm very calm and cold in my delivery, even in the face of tears. that shit doesn't work for me. i gave her the truth, all of it.
it feels good to tell someone exactly what i wanted to say.
the only thing that sucks is that we have to work together for the next 2 months. if it gets bad, i have no problem quiting.
i forgot to mention all of the other things this crazy girl has done. the things are too numerous, but lets just say she now has her hair exactly like mine, with new clothing that is EXACTLY like mine, and a new favorite color for the year which happens to be the color that is strewn all throughout my house(orange).
c-r-a-z-y
Monday, March 31, 2008
Thursday, March 27, 2008
te quiero mucho
it's been a while.
my grandmother passed away this past thursday evening at 9:15pm. i was driving home from class, talking to mindy on the phone at about 9:15. she asked me about my grandmother and i told her that i wanted her to die because she was suffering so much and i knew she would never recover. a few minutes into the conversation i get a call from my mom and i answer it and she's sobbing, she died. i was in shock. immediately i wanted to take back that comment i made, that energy i put out into the universe. it was too late. i know she didn't die because of what i said. she was ready. she waited to see her three living children and when they left she passed. i got to talk to her on the phone earlier in the day. well, actually we didn't talk. my mom held the phone to her ear and took the oxygen mask off while i told her that i loved her very much and she responded with a couple of whimpers. her last words were "how bitter" meaning the water she was drinking and life itself. the nurse asked her if she wanted different water and she said, "no thank you." she closed her eyes and passed to the other side.
i miss her. she was a spoiled brat, but so hard to resist. she gave me so many things... love of plants and animals, cooking, art, beauty, and most importantly spirituality. she showed me that there is a different way from such a young age. she opened my eyes to the truth.
my grandmother passed away this past thursday evening at 9:15pm. i was driving home from class, talking to mindy on the phone at about 9:15. she asked me about my grandmother and i told her that i wanted her to die because she was suffering so much and i knew she would never recover. a few minutes into the conversation i get a call from my mom and i answer it and she's sobbing, she died. i was in shock. immediately i wanted to take back that comment i made, that energy i put out into the universe. it was too late. i know she didn't die because of what i said. she was ready. she waited to see her three living children and when they left she passed. i got to talk to her on the phone earlier in the day. well, actually we didn't talk. my mom held the phone to her ear and took the oxygen mask off while i told her that i loved her very much and she responded with a couple of whimpers. her last words were "how bitter" meaning the water she was drinking and life itself. the nurse asked her if she wanted different water and she said, "no thank you." she closed her eyes and passed to the other side.
i miss her. she was a spoiled brat, but so hard to resist. she gave me so many things... love of plants and animals, cooking, art, beauty, and most importantly spirituality. she showed me that there is a different way from such a young age. she opened my eyes to the truth.
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
i've got another midterm tonight and another due tomorrow. The one for tomorrow is a take home case study thing which is good. i worked on a 5 lesson unit plan the entire weekend. i also managed to run outside with mindy in the beautiful, sunny, 70* weather. we also went bowling on sunday. i hoovered around 100 points. last sunday i got a 140. that's the best i've ever done, ever.
things at work are going okay. keara has been sick and out the last two days. that really efs up the kids when we have someone new in the classroom. luckily yesterday we only had 5 kids since more than half were sick. today we had 8 and things were pretty bad when eliza tripped in the classroom and re-opened an old scab on her knee. wouldn't stop crying. the non stop crying really irritated "little keira" who can't handle loud noise. that set the tone for the entire day. it's was so damn awesome!!!!!! i didn't die from it, so that's okay i guess.
i suppose i should study some more.
tootles.
things at work are going okay. keara has been sick and out the last two days. that really efs up the kids when we have someone new in the classroom. luckily yesterday we only had 5 kids since more than half were sick. today we had 8 and things were pretty bad when eliza tripped in the classroom and re-opened an old scab on her knee. wouldn't stop crying. the non stop crying really irritated "little keira" who can't handle loud noise. that set the tone for the entire day. it's was so damn awesome!!!!!! i didn't die from it, so that's okay i guess.
i suppose i should study some more.
tootles.
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