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i'm so so sad. i can feel the depression taking a grip over me. i'm trying so hard not to let it happen. but i can't help but feel sad. i'm consumed with doubt. it literally makes me sick. i don't know what i want. i thought i was over the sudden waves of emotion, but i guess tonight is a hard one. if i could, i would literally sleep and sleep and sleep. i don't want to do anything. i don't know why this is all hitting me so hard right now.
to top it all of, i just wiped my tears with fingers that previously rubbed red pepper flakes. great.