what's meant to be will be

so, i'm in my new place.
tonight will be my third night. it's a difficult feeling to describe because it's not just one feeling. it's many.
i'm relieved not to be in the situation i was in. i'm also unsure of what will come next. sometime i don't really even know what i want next. right now i just play it day by day. it feels kind of exciting not to have to ask someone if they think it's okay if i hang this here, but at the same time i kind of miss it. this place still doesn't feel like home and i'm wondering when it will. it still kind of feels like i'm in a hotel. i'm wondering what kind of routine, if any, mike and i will settle into. i want a dog, but i know it's not the responsible thing to do since i'm planning on going out of the country for a month in about 6 months.

as far as career wise, things couldn't be going any better. it looks like i may go straight into a teaching position at the same grade level at my school. working there was my number one choice and i consider it my dream job. some unexpected changes have taken place and it looks like there is an opening that is perfect for me to slide right into. the principal asked me to get my things in to hr.

with everything that is going on in my life right now, there is one thing i can say for sure. it is all happening the way it is supposed to. i have never felt it so strong. this is the way it is all supposed to happen and the way it all ends up is what is best for me.