sometimes i just wonder about humanity and the ability to wistand bullshit and the meaning of withstanding bull shit. and what is bull shit anyways?
ugh...
i'm pretty much pissed at the pizza delivery guy who just forgot my cheesey bread. i told him that i would give him the rest of the money when he came back with the bread. as soon as i got inside i felt so bad for him. he was a very nice, appologetic, older man, that drove up in his family hoopty. you can tell he's trying to make ends meet in an "honest " way. this is probably his weekend job. i added a dollar to his tip, bringing the tip to a grand total of 6 dollars. that's pretty good if you ask me. i still feel bad.
but, back to my problems. mike really disapointed me on thursday night. as a precursor; he is very jelous of anybody in my life, be it family or friends. mindy went to the sand gnats baseball game with us for thirsty thursday. first time she's hung out with the three of us. she has purposefully avoided it because she didn't want to be the third wheel. well, in the end he called her and i lesbians and continued to berate her while she sat in the back seat of the car on the ride home. disapointed/angry/sad... must i go on.?
i slept in my car after a very ugly and aggresive argument till abot 3am. then i snuck into the guest room. he called at around 4am wondering where i was and could i please call him. he called again at 5am and i answered, let him know i was in the guest room.
same shit over and over. am i too cynical? am i the bitch? i know that in this situation i am not, but am i generally just way too bitchy?
1 comment:
no, not too bitchy at all. i look up to the way you handle situations and your outlook on things as they come your way.. it's often the standard by which I try to remember to hold myself to. I'd probably stand up for myself even less if it weren't for you -which would be hard since that'd be like negative-standing-up-for-myself-ness. jk.
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