Thursday, August 30, 2007

it just makes me sad

it hurts my feelings when a person i consider one of my best friends, doesn't call on my birthday or the next, or the next. you get the idea. we had a falling out that spanned a year long of no communication whatsoever. then we buried the hatchet and returned to normal, only now we lived 1,000's of miles away from each other. it bothers me that i've become that friend in her life that she sees is calling and doesn't answer the phone. i remember when she used to do that with lyndsey, a very good friend of hers.
the last time we talked she said to me that we needed to talk more and that just because we don't talk as much not to think that i'm not always on her mind. that made me feel good. i told her i thought we should talk more too, but i didn't say that the reason we don't talk as much is because you don't answer the phone or return my calls.
-so the conversation ended and i called her a few days later to keep her abreast of a situation and to keep the ball rolling with "keeping in touch" and the same shit happens. no call back for months. then i decided one day to call her and let her know of all the knew things in my life and she immediately called back after hearing my message(and not answering the call in the first place) only because she thought i had something "important" to tell her. i couldn't answer the phone right that moment. that was it. my birthday came around about a week or so later and, no call.
just to quote her "it will never be the same"

2 comments:

Mason said...

but guess who DIDDDD text you at 12midnight on your bday? Me. Guess WHY? cause i love you.

ellekinzy said...

bdays are hard while we're still young & broke, ie: maybe presents don't always happen or cards come a week (or month) later but were totally well-meant, BUT the phone call thing?? should just be an effing GIVEN. if you can't make time to call or text someone on their bday, i agree that you're seriously dropping the friendship ball...